Coincidence? I think not.

Yet another productless night simply because of the amount of thoughts in my head. I really needed some personal reflection and silent time with God, so I put my school work aside for the night and did just that. And it was greatly needed.

God's will is sometimes extremely hard to follow. You pray. You hear what God wants you to do. And then your first reaction is, "Uh, are you sure?" Our human nature tells us to be stubborn and ignore what God's will has called us to do, but honestly, there is no escaping it. It's there. Staring you blank in the face. And it is not going to leave you alone until you stop being hard-headed and do what God wants you to do.

That's where I am at and have been the past week. My human nature tells me to be stubborn, while the Holy Spirit is telling me to just stop being an idiot and listen. Well, okay, maybe not that harshly. But you get the picture.

I started reading Crazy Love last night before bed. And only four chapters in, I realized something very important. It is something, as the book says, that we have always been taught, but neglect to really reflect on. The size of our God. The mere perfectness of our God. Just, how amazing he is and worthy he is of our love and just how much he loves us. These are all things that we are taught within our years of vacation Bible school and church camps. It is the "Jesus loves me this I know, FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO" mentality. The Bible tells us that we are loved and should reciprocate, but have we ever really applied it. Instead of just learn it.

I just sat back and thought about all the awesome things God has done or created on this Earth that just show how powerful he really is.

All the different faces, hair colors, and body types.
The sheer size of a mountain range, randomness, and how it looks purple from a distance.
Each little leg on a centipede.
The connection between the eye and the brain that allows us to see.
The concept of freedom and individuality, the protection from robotic life styles.
The Milky Way (And I am not talking about the candy bar.)
The fact that the waste from plants is essential to our ability to breath.
How delicately the seeds on a dandelion are attached, in order for them to spread to grow.
The human brain capacity to create mathematics and computers.
Fish that can withstand the massive pressure of water thousands of feet below the ocean.
The concept of love.
The ability to create, understand, and speak language.
How the tides work perfectly in sync because of the moon that is miles and miles away.
The strength of a seed to spurt its plant out of the ground, watered or not.
The fact that a baby's head is not solid before birth.
How each organ in the body knows exactly what is supposed to be doing only because of the complex system of chemicals and brain activity that we have yet to fully understand.
How an oyster, arguably one of the most ugly looking creatures, can create a pearl.
How an entire body can balance on two feet and ten toes.
How a baby can be a perfect genealogical mixture between both parents.

Now that is one legit God. Agreed? That is the God that I want to love.

None of these are coincidence.
It just makes you step back and realize how great he is.
And if I cannot follow and put my full trust in the will of THAT God, then I have a problem.
Not God. Not my friends. Not my family.
Me. I have the problem.