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Pain. Hunger. Exhaustion.
We live and walk in a world of tests.
We haven't studied.
We just wing it.
I'm in pain. I'm hungry. I'm exhausted.
You're in pain. You're hungry. You're exhausted.
But I need that A+.
You need that A+.
Why do I feel like I am only at D+ status?
I haven't studied, that's why.
Christ, he is my tutor.
He tells me what I should do.
What I need to do.
It's up to me to listen.
I suppose.
Then maybe, I can past this test.

A Day of Johnny Cash and "Phew" Moments

Today, of all days, I am absolutely exhausted. I don't know if it is from my lack of nutrition or my lack of sleep. But either way, my head is about to hit the keyboard as I am writing this. But on a more positive note, Sunday's and Monday's have recently become my new favorite days. Okay, yes, those are my two busiest days, but hey, I like to be busy. And the best part is watching Pretty Little Liars to wind down Mondays with Rachel, Kirsten and Brittany.

Now, on to my happy list.
But first, a little disclaimer: I forgot my happy journal today, so the list may not be as good as some of the other ones.

Myself: Good job with saying "no" today. Choosing water over coffee is a big step.

Dinner Table: Always much more fun when you have sporadic dance parties after eating.

TV: I don't care if you're an inanimate object, but I love screaming at you anyway, hoping you will at least hear a whisper.

Rain: Again, the sound of your sudden down pour almost put me to sleep.

iPod: Once again, you have gotten me addicted to your new photo app. I love you.

Today's Classes: The continuous references to "Space Jam" made me happy.

Johnny Cash: Rain falling + plus "Ring of Fire" = Smiles.

God: Stress is never a good thing, and today you have blessed me beyond belief. Thanks for that "Phew" moment.

Quote of the Day: "God is a God of little things."

Verse of the Day: Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. - Philippians 3:13-14

More Recent Happy Moments...

Those weekends when you lay down at night and thing "Why does it have to end?"

The fact that experimental baking/cooking will always be interesting.

That look on a little kids face when a birthday candle is lit, or when they are eating an ice cream cone.

Screaming to your favorite song on the radio.

Watching ducks eat bread like it's Thanksgiving.

Climbing trees like your five years old again.

Who doesn't love a baby's laugh?

Watching two characters fall in love in a movie.

Capturing that perfect candid.

The sound of waterfalls and dogs barking all in one place.

Here's a few in picture form,

Little yellow houses make me smile.

McDonald's makes me laugh when they give
me a grilled chicken salad...with out the salad.

I love random, old rustic farms on the
side of the road.

I love days the days when I wear red Toms.

Black and white movies are the most interesting thing, ever.

Have you ever watched the sunset creep through the
windows and move across the wall?

Accidently baking something good is probably the most
exciting thing to ever happen.

And last but not least, standing beneath the shadows of huge crosses.
Humble is an understatement.

From the words of Kelsey Daisey....

• We search for something that no one can define.
  We cry from disappointment, when we thought our search was over.
  We dream that we’re surrounded in this universal desire.
  We must be on guard, for this desire can be counterfeited.
  We open our identities, not expecting that they will later be stolen away. Even when we get it wrong, we still tell our minds that it was right. Just so we think we found the universal desire.
  But stop looking. You won’t find the real thing on your own.
  You will only find hurt, or maybe a tarnished version.
  We are loved. More then you can imagine. Don’t ask me why. I deserve it the least. For I have found the real Love. The unfailing universal desire. Yet I still take it for granted and throw it to the side. To love someone, is to put them before yourself.
  To love someone, is to please them, no matter what your desire is.
  To love someone, is to die. So that they may live.
  May live. Meaning, you would die, so they could have the choice to live. Meaning, you could die, and they still throw your love away, and die also. This love, is the ultimate love. And it has been given, to all of us who want to take it. It is free to accept, but hard to hold onto.
  Because for some reason, we’re wrapped up in the idea, that love is physical. But one day, the physical life will be over. All physical love, is temporary. It’s up to you.
  Two options.
  Keep searching, and falling for a physical, temporary love.
  Or...stop searching, and see that the work of finding the ultimate love has already been done, and it was done...... all for you.
  
  I will love, because YOUR love, is the greatest love. It is all I need. and I am confident when I say, “I know You love me.” YOUR love is not physical. meaning....it will last forever. forever.....

I'm Trying Something New.

Hello from Carrier Library.

I have had a journal with me every where I go for the past few days.
And every time something that happens that makes me smile, laugh, or just plain happy, I write it down. So I thought I would share some of these things. Maybe they will make you smile a little bit too. So, to those things that have made me happy lately:

Little Girl: Your mom bought you a huge pink bouncy ball at Walmart. I don't think I have ever seen a bigger smile.

Myself: When buying tissue paper, make sure it is not a table cloth in disguise.

The Berry Patch: You guys really know how to cook. Turkey (marinated in lime juice and cinnamon) Quesadilla's?! The epitome of "don't judge a book by it's cover."

My Lovely Hallmate: Thanks for teaching me how to say dumb cow in German... Dumme Kuh.

Muffins with a Broccoli Stalk Inside: You two are not made to be a couple. But thanks for the laughs.

Random Bike: You do not belong in the branches of a tree.

Rain: The way you sound hitting the windows is extremely relaxing. And I am fascinated by how you make little rivers on the sidewalk.

Umbrellas and Rainboots: You can make the most dreary days surprisingly colorful.

Elderly Couple in the Parking Lot: When you hold hands, I smile.

Quote of the Day: The kitchens in residence halls are kind of sketch. And by "kind of", I mean "very."


I like small happy things.

It's the small things in life,

that will make you happy.

Like experimenting with flavors at Starbucks, and realizing you just created a delicious combination.

Or watching the rain drops hit the window.

Waiting Patiently

I'm sitting in hallway at the moment, waiting for my class to start, which will be in about 10 minutes or so. But, my mind is not on the homework that I forgot to do, but it's on the tiny little picture of the beach on my phone. As a means to cure my summer depression, I set it as my phone wallpaper. But now, it is just making me even more homesick. I love little moments like this. But no worries, I go home for spring break in a week, and I most definitely will fill my beach craving. I don't care how cold it is. Oh, how I love my Fenwick Island.